The time has come...

This morning we will pack up the cars and head to Alamogordo, New Mexico. Almost exactly 6 months from the day Jason called and told me that this was in our future. I'm not going to lie...I'm ready. And not ready in the sense of "ready to start over" and "start a new chapter" and "we needed change" etc...I would have been perfectly happy staying put. I'm ready in the sense of I'm tired and emotionally exhausted. I'm ready to stop saying goodbye. I said goodbye to my job and all of those amazing people...crushing. Then had Dave and Buster's where I said goodbye to more friends and then Tricia...heartbreaking. At Caylee's party I said goodbye to my Dad...there aren't words. Tonight, I said goodbye to my sister...ouch...and then all the friends in between. So many tears. Tomorrow I will say my last goodbye to my mom and that will about do me in. But there's that part of me that is relieved that it is my last. I have been lucky to finish out the school year and spend time with all of these important people in my life...but it has made this inevitable process, one that I can not change, drawn out and emotionally draining. So it feels a little weird to dread and look forward to such a sad day. Another one of those bittersweet moments. So this is happening....Goodbye Arizona. You are my home and always will be. I will be back....just taking a little side adventure. Let's hope it doesn't suck!