Loss

I've had enough. 2012 has not exactly been the most positive year between the loss of mothers and furry, four-legged companions.  We lost Barkley and Skippy within 5 days of each other. Finishing with the loss of Buddy yesterday. I'm having a hard time wrapping my mind around all of it. The circle of life, I know, but it seems so unfair to have it snowballing within a year's time. So much sadness. Losing Barkley has been a rough one and a long one. It's like a piece of my childhood died. Sounds harsh, maybe a little dramatic but it's true. Prescott became a huge piece of my childhood and Barkley was Prescott. He was our little piece of home that had always been there since we left to start our own lives, and now he's gone. I've been up there twice since he's been gone and feels empty and lonely. You can feel him missing and it feels sad and uneasy. A dog that barely made a peep and yet now that he's gone it feels too quiet. There's no reason for my Dad to stay in that house anymore, so we'll soon lose that too. Our house...our home. With Barkley passing, along with Skippy and Buddy, you realize how important and special unconditional love is. Priceless. The love a dog has for it's family is not one that can be easily explained. They love absolutely unconditionally and no human being can do it in such a way that a dog does. It doesn't matter how we act, what we say, what we do. They love. It is the most amazing experience. When they are gone, the void is huge and heart breaking. All of these dogs loved us unconditionally for their ENTIRE lives. I am blessed that these dogs were chosen to be part of our lives. I'm still sad that they are gone, sometimes still mad that they are gone, and it sure makes me hold on to Bailey so much harder and cherish the time we have left with him. I pray our time of loss is over for a while. A long while. I just need a break.